Thursday, February 15, 2007,
I'm totally upset about something that had happened to me recently.
Guess most of em had already learnt bout it already.
I will say it's really a blow to me
Initially when i learnt bout the truth of the entire thing.
Reality is cruelty...
I would never imagined that things would turned out to be this way.
I've always treated you as my buddy or "close friend" you would call.
Nothing more, nothing less.
We should have nt cross the line since then.
I had every reason to raise n rant about this whole damned thing, so don't ever blame me.
You brought it upon yourself.
Everyone said that you took me for granted~
I told myself tt perhaps if i didn't try i'll never know if it will ever work out.
So i've decided to open up a lil, n see how it goes..
Well till nw, if pple were to ask me what's e song that best describes you,
I shall say its -
I see your True Colours.You've not only made me disappointed, but also almost everyone who knows about us.
This whole situation has became more and more absurd.
It made me realised tt what a bastard you are!
Fucking Bastard to be precised.
So stop turning tables to accuse me tt im the one who've been all e while being one-sided!
Stop assuming that i know nothing bout ur dirty little secrets
What a Sore Loser U ARE!
And Chermaine! You put the whore in whore man!
U're just trying so HARD to please n bootlick ppl around u lars!
Gosh! Do u noe what Shame, Shameless, and Shameful means?
I can simply do dictation with these words with u lars
Oh ya,re. bout ur issue with Salihin's ex gf n all
God! ppls relationship has nothing gonna do with u rite?
He's my sec sch classmates for like almost 3 freaking years
So don't u EVER rant bout anyone who's in my batch ya!
if we're still back in sec sch days u'll be gone i promise!
Fancy throwing youself to any n every Malay guy on earth~
Ewwwww what's wrong with you BITCH?
Or u wanna give up pork just because you don't wanna eat yourself huh?
U're just like the BIGGEST CHUNK of Pork Chop alive!
PORK->PIG->BaBI> Ewwww
Guess what? You're the main cause of everything!
Look @ ur size, y r u always coming in between ppl?
Don't u just need space?
And regarding bout that JAPANESE FRIEND of Yours!
You've just made yourself look like A Mamasan~!
So wad r u expecting from them?
An invitation to a threesome experience with them?
Please lah! That's so yesterday n GO GET A LIFE can!
U Sick To the PUSSY!
Ewwwwwwww...
U r always tryin' so hard to socialise yourself with everyone.
U SHAMELESS Slut!
You better know who ure talking to right now!
Before ill turn real nasty than u can ever imagine of!
Let this be Official and clear to YOU
When i'm good, i can be real good, but when i turned nasty, well.. Good luck to you then.Well, there were just too many factors that lead to the decision that i've made.
I still strongly believe that things happen for a reason, and i have all reasons to come up with this decision.
3rd parties, an ultimate bitch involved and her childish behaviour
Initially, frankly speaking, i really got no idea of what i'm actually looking for when i'm with you.
You came into my circle, and walked out of it.
If only i could turn back time, i would hope that i've never met you.
Those happy days back in NYP and at work shall just stayed as memories.
The memories that you once brought to me will never be forgotten.
How much i wanna salvage this friendship, but i couldn't see myself doing it.
Well Deen,i see right though your game boy
and i know exactly what i'm in for
you tried to deny all your actions
for once in your life be a real man
at least give me the proper respect
of the truth i already know you did it
why should I believe in anything that you say
and how could you shame me that way
tell me where did you get the nerve
to even think that you could
play me wrong
you thought we didn't know
you thought we were in the dark
but boy your covers blown
cause we both know now
you thought you had us fooled
at your beckon call
but now who's the joke
and look who's laughing now
I see right through you, Deen
why don't you get it through your thick head
cause i've seen this game before
and i'm not showing you the door so
SHUT YOUR MOUTH
i'm not trying to hear your lies
no not again
sorry you couldn't be a better man.
4:26 AM